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lil_alky_skwerl
17 October 2008 @ 12:50 am
Yep, here they is!


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lil_alky_skwerl
17 October 2008 @ 12:12 am

Oh my god! Stupid MySpace had the blog section down nearly all day  I don't even remember what I was going to blog about. It's odd, I went back and read my old blogs, all the way from 2004 to now (wow, memories...) and I used to post a lot. I mean A LOT! They weren't always just short posts either and on average there were two posts a day. I guess I just had a lot more to say back then. I mean I was in school and always had something going on. Life has kind of just become routien now. I blame a lot on work leaving me little time for anything else. I'm going to request a weekend day off a week. I'm fucking 22, I need to get out and have fun while I can. I'm going to update this more though. It does help me process things much easier when I see it in words and I do like to have a record that I did have a life. If people commented more, I'd probably post more too. You know, just knowing someone is reading this. That could have also been a reason I posted so much on LiveJournal, I had a good amount of people who read my blog and comments. Made me feel good for whatever reason. I really have been feeling a lot better lately though, diet and all. I still have issues in my head, living in the past too much or living in a fairy tale world in my head of what could've happen and what could happen. Almost opened up to someone today about it. I should've, someone else needs to know. I even set the whole thing up yesterday to happen, but got nervous last minute and never called. Somethings are best left unsaid and, I guess, some doors are best left closed. So it goes.


 
 
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lil_alky_skwerl
04 January 2008 @ 10:34 am
I heard about what happened to Britney Spears this morning when I woke up. I know it comes as no surprise to anyone that I am a fan of her music and that usual comes with people questioning how I could be a fan of hers even in her current state. Music having nothing to do with her as a person aside, I am equally as confused how people can make judgments on someone they don't know and say sickening things about another human life, such as wishing death upon them. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a fan of the underdog. The more people that gang up on someone, the more likely I will support them, within reason. I am, of course, in no way going to condon her actions at all. She needs help. This is extremely obvious and it has been for a while. However, the general public would rather laugh at her expense and treat her as a cartoon character rather then a human with severe issues. Having BPD, which is similar to being Bipolar (which she is RUMORED to be), I remember what it is like to feel your world slipping away and having no one there to help you when you're falling down. Unfortunately, I made a really bad decision when I was there. I hope she gets help before something similar happens to her.
 
 
lil_alky_skwerl
03 January 2008 @ 02:20 pm
Well. 2007. Done with that disappointment of a year. Can't really put blame on anyone for the crummy year except for myself. I was right, however, last year when I said 2007 was going to be different for me and that I would go through a lot of changes. I have. Unfortunately it took me the entire year to grow and discover myself more (can't really FULLY discover myself just yet, and don't intend on it). I have had new experiences and finally begun to step out of my shell. I know I will be able to take all these experiences and really use them in 2008. Now, whether I spend 2008 in Georgia again or back in Florida, I am uncertain. I do have a few people I will miss up here and they're the only things making me question whether I should go back or not. I don't even know how many people I have down there. I check my FL myspace now and then and it is basically dead. I guess it didn't help that I don't really log on it, but still... It might be like starting over in a new state AGAIN. My BPD really kicked me into a bad place these last few months. Pretty much hit rock bottom in the depression category, but I feel like that's over and, for the first time since 2004, I feel able to commit hardcore to my diet/workout. I remember for a brief time back in '04, I was confident in myself and, for the most part, happy... And I'm sure most of that was caused by me taking care of my body and such, so why not go back to that? Wow, this post is all over the place. I really have a hard time staying on any kind of topic. Oh well. Maybe I'll update later?
 
 
lil_alky_skwerl
03 January 2008 @ 02:14 pm
Well, thanks to bradfordneal, I'll start updating this blog along side my myspace blog. Might as well have one more tab opened on FireFox =P
 
 
 
lil_alky_skwerl
25 July 2007 @ 01:33 pm
Wow, I really haven't updated in awhile. I shall try to get on that, however if you are interested in keeping up to date with me, I am constantly updating my MySpace blog at:

http://www.myspace.com/thedarktwin102
 
 
lil_alky_skwerl
19 April 2007 @ 01:25 pm
I will make an actual post one day, I promise!


 
 
lil_alky_skwerl
12 April 2007 @ 03:34 pm
=) These ones aren't nearly as revealing =P


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lil_alky_skwerl
12 April 2007 @ 11:34 am
Ummm....... a couple new pics:
 
 
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lil_alky_skwerl
03 April 2007 @ 11:40 am


w00t!!
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