Oh my god! Stupid MySpace had the blog section down nearly all day I don't even remember what I was going to blog about. It's odd, I went back and read my old blogs, all the way from 2004 to now (wow, memories...) and I used to post a lot. I mean A LOT! They weren't always just short posts either and on average there were two posts a day. I guess I just had a lot more to say back then. I mean I was in school and always had something going on. Life has kind of just become routien now. I blame a lot on work leaving me little time for anything else. I'm going to request a weekend day off a week. I'm fucking 22, I need to get out and have fun while I can. I'm going to update this more though. It does help me process things much easier when I see it in words and I do like to have a record that I did have a life. If people commented more, I'd probably post more too. You know, just knowing someone is reading this. That could have also been a reason I posted so much on LiveJournal, I had a good amount of people who read my blog and comments. Made me feel good for whatever reason. I really have been feeling a lot better lately though, diet and all. I still have issues in my head, living in the past too much or living in a fairy tale world in my head of what could've happen and what could happen. Almost opened up to someone today about it. I should've, someone else needs to know. I even set the whole thing up yesterday to happen, but got nervous last minute and never called. Somethings are best left unsaid and, I guess, some doors are best left closed. So it goes.